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Lyrics
Nothing I could put into words
Would do justice to you
And your life on this Earth
Cuz everything means nothing now
I wanna live life
But I just don’t know how
I ask God why you got taken away
Even though I know you’re in a better place
Well some tell me that life goes on
But I just can’t deal with the face that you’re gone
Half of me died
On that night
The pain inside
Is not worth the fight
Can’t say goodbye
It just don’t feel right
You’re not by my side
And now I’m half alive
Never thought I’d have to ever
Go through life without you
Supposed to be best friends forever
But forever came too soon
And now I’m stuck here thinkin’
Of how it was gonna be
But that can never happen
Cuz there’s no more you and me
Before I realized what happened
I found out you were gone
But I hope you know through me
You’ll always be living on
Half of me died
On that night
The pain inside
Is not worth the fight
Can’t say goodbye
It just don’t feel right
You’re not by my side
And now I’m half alive
I swear I can hear you
You’re talking to me
And sometimes I feel you
LIke you still walk with me
I sit here and think
I just can’t believe
Fight through the tears
So maybe I can see
I wish I’d wake up
And this is only a dream
I wish God had saved you
And instead taken me
Half of me died
On that night
The pain inside
Is not worth the fight
Can’t say goodbye
It just don’t feel right
You’re not by my side
And now I’m half alive
Story Behind The Song
I just want to say that I am a firm believer in a song taking on meaning for each person that listens to it. And I hope that happens for you. I just want to let you know what I was thinking when I wrote it. But please don’t let that ruin what the song means for you…
Matt was one of my best friends growing up.
He had a single mom. Margaret, who I am still close to today.
I actually had to let them know if I wasn’t going to be staying the weekend at their house. That’s how often I was there. We were very close.
We shared a lot of our past in common…not knowing much about our fathers. Struggling with that as teenagers. Both being angry. Then being there for each other when we did meet (or get letters from) our dads. And having to deal with the struggle of that.
No one else would ever understand the relationship we had.
Then he passed away when he was 20.
I was 19.
He had heart problems. He had atrial fib. At the time the doctors said he couldn’t die from it.
I was at college. My 2nd year. It was a Monday Night. I was talking to him about the football game and who he should bet on.
Apparently he took a few steps from the computer and passed away that night.
I was a pallbearer. Had to speak. Had to call a lot of people from school and tell them.
It changed my life.
It completely changed the person I was.
So…that’s Matt’s Song. I sincerely hope it helps other people who have gone through a loss that cut deep.